DARKNESS

What is DARKNESS?

Darkness is the feeling of being alone, loneliness.
Darkness is drowning in sorrow.
Darkness is not being loved.
Darkness is when there is no one to help you.
Darkness is being bullied.
Darkness is when they belittle you.
Darkness is when they do not appreciate you.
Darkness is not knowing what to do.
Darkness can overwhelm you.
Darkness is when you feel helpless and suicidal.
Darkness is when you are sick, physically and mentally.
Darkness is when no one can hear your cries for help.
Darkness is the feeling of unworthiness.
But the darkest of darkness is when all these feelings happen from people you love, family and friends.

Making a Journal

It has been years since I have blogged. Especially on this personal blog site. So many blogging sites has come and gone. There were a few that were great but then again, when success comes too fast, failure follows. People become too greedy.
So since other paying sites are not doing so great anymore, I plan just to write here. Pour out my emotions and feelings. Write nonsense things or even good things. I have shared recipes, feelings, reviews and more here.
I missed writing, it was a way for me to let out my feelings and emotions. to find refuge when I am down.
So now I will be back again. If people read this, good; if not, that is ok. This is for me...no one else.
Maybe there will be things seen  or shared tha will make a difference in other people's life.
So, welcome back to me and good luck.

Writing Sites Gone Sour

I have been blogging for a long time now. On different sites. The longest was on Bubblews which suddenly stopped paying and had many problems. I have been lucky to have been paid but also the later part they stopped. it had become harder to earn. I am also on Wikinut. I have not been paid there yet. I don't know how to reach the minimum payout. But I have not encountered any problems with it. There are a lot of very good writers and good people on that site. Maybe someday I will go back writing there.
Teckler was not bad they had a low minimum and you could post just only pictures and videos. I have been paid before they closed.
Post Any Article was doing good. I think they were sister sites of FOK but that too closed. Up to now the account is suspended. It has been paying and I have been paid a few times. Maybe it will come back.
Another is Persona Paper. I have been paid and it is doing good. We are always updated by the admins. Kind of slow but we can get the minimum. So I still keep my account there open, contributing once and a while and reading other posts.
Elitevisitors was a new site. A lot of disgruntled Bubblews writers joined. There was a problem, one owner ran off with the money, they changed the name to Bestwriters then to World Wide Writers. So disappointed to find out it just closed without warnings.
So now I am wary of writing sites. I am on Write to Earn and Seraphicinsights. Both new and I have heard of some being paid. 
I have been busy so many life changing happenings that I have not been writing much. I want to go back to blogging.
I used to write about so many things and news. I love to write about my feelings and happenings. But not knowing the status of writing sites I don't write as often.
I remembered my personal blog site. Hmm maybe I should reopen and do more here. I just need to know how to make a Google AdSense account and maybe earn from my blogs. At least I know where my writings are and they belong to me. I can do whatever I want, use whatever picture or video I want.
I will have no boss.
I am a bit rusty now but soon I will get back to the hang of writing and researching. I like to make comparison blogs on food and items and people.
So for now I will continue to contribute to my other writing sites and back here to my blog site. Who knows, I might do better here. So will keep you  posted!

Perfumes...I Love To Use Them

Perfumes...I love the different varieties, the different scents and the different manufacturers. The only thing that is a downfall are the prices. Well if you want really good quality perfume, you have to pay for it. There are the imitations but the scent don't last long. But they are ok for daily use, pretend you are using the original ,you just have to touch up every hour or so to maintain the scent lol. Perfumes makes you feel and smell good and completes your outfit.

Body sprays are also good for regular daily use. If you are going to the groceries or just malling. Victoria's Secret is one brand that is very famous and they have different scents. There are also those made in Singapore which are cheaper and the same problem, the scent does not stay on long.

So if it was my choice, I would rather stick to the original brands. One thing you are sure of good quality and the scent stays long.

Before choosing a scent or brand, if they have testers, try them first. Some scents will not go well with all body chemicals. Like the sweat and skin. I prefer the woodsy mixed with floral and citrus for daily use. I love the romantic and exotic smell for formal affairs.

I have a collection of VS body spray and lotion but I like Amber Romance, Secret Charm and LoveSpell. Actually these were scents given to me and luckily it goes well with my body chemicals :). There were others but I really did not like them, they much too strong.

Now in perfumes I have Chanel No. 5, Juicy Couture, White Diamonds by Elizabeth Taylor, Tabu and my favorite Daisy by Marc Jacobs. Wow seems expensive brands? Well they were all given as gifts :).

I was given these scents from my brothers in the US and I'm glad the go well with my body scents. I especially love the Daisy. I am glad I have relatives and friends who give me these as gifts because if I bought them here in the Philippines, uhmm it's kind of expensive. At least I know they are originals. Actually one time my older brother bought a couple of Chanel No. 5 because it is my mothers favorite. But he was kind of doubtful because it looked lighter and the smell was faint. So when he went home to the US he wrote the company and complained, good thing they gave him 4 new boxes and original for sure. They apologized for their dealer and even let him keep the fake ones. since he gave us the originals, I gave one of the fake ones to my helper, made her happy. The original scent is there but you can tell it was watered, just does not last as long.

I also try other brands and scents, especially for daily wear like body sprays. As long as I don't get allergic and the scent is pleasing so people around you won't be disturbed by your smell. That is also another thing you have to consider before buying and wearing perfume. Not too much to be overbearing and not too sweet or musky, you also have to consider the people around you especially the one you are with :). It must be pleasing to them too.

Family Trees

What is a Family Tree? Well it is not a real tree but it is called a tree because we start out with person or the root of the family or clan. It could be the grandparents of the one starting it. Then it branches out to the children and their spouses to their children and children's children. It begins to look like a tree with branches :)

The best person or persons to make one would be the grand parents but if the are too old then the children with the help of their children. It would be nice to be able to make it up to the 4th or 5th generation.

I am starting to make my family tree starting with my grandparents (mother side), then my parent, my siblings and my siblings kids so up to the fourth generation. But I also got up to my nieces and nephews children. So up to the fifth generation.

I had started and almost finished it around 10 years ago. It was done on the website known as MyFamily.com. But after I got hooked to Facebook along with my other relatives, the site was ignored. But now because a family tree is needed I had to look for it. it was a good thing my brother kept paying for the site. I was sad to see that that the family tree was transferred  I had a hard time looking for it and when I found it  I was happy to see that some of the infos were still there.

This time I asked the help of some cousins and nieces and nephews. I was happy to see them cooperating.  But making it is really a task getting the dates and pictures. My mother has 9 siblings and 2 that died while they were young. As of now I have the information of the 2 that died and two families, of course my mom and her sister that are complete. The other sister is almost done but of the 6 brothers 5 have infos and some pictures but 1 still has none.

This gives me a headache but I think it is worth it. It will be something to hand down to our children and their children, an heirloom. At least they will know their roots, even if they have not seen them. Some people don't even know where their roots came from. I even added the children of my cousins born out of wedlock :)

I hope to be able to finish it, with complete pictures and information.  Wish me luck!

Rainbow Bridge

I Love dogs. To me they are like my family. I have lost a few very close ones and I have shed lots of tears especially for my first dog Lychee and my second one Candy. They have been with me for more than 4 years before they left. I was so sad then but while browsing I found a poem dedicated to dogs and pets who have gone before us. It helps to lessen the hurt of losing a loved pet. I want to share with you all. Some hay have read it and some not. The title is "Rainbow Bridge":

Just this side of Heaven is a place called Rainbow Bridge...

When an animal dies that has been especially close to someone here, that pet goes to Rainbow Bridge. There are meadows and hills for all of our special friends so they can run and play together. There is plenty of food and water and sunshine, and our friends are warm and comfortable. All the animals who had been ill and old are restored to health and vigor; those who were hurt or maimed are made whole and strong again, just as we remember them in our dreams of days and times gone by.

The animals are happy and content, except for one small thing: they miss someone very special to them; who had to be left behind.

They all run and play together, but the day comes when one suddenly stops and looks into the distance. The bright eyes are intent; the eager body quivers. Suddenly he begins to break away from the group, flying over the green grass, his legs carrying him faster and faster. YOU have been spotted, and when you and your special friend finally meet, you cling together in joyous reunion, never to be parted again. The happy kisses rain upon your face; your hands again caress the beloved head, and you look once more into the trusting eyes of your pet, so long gone from your life but never absent from your heart.

THEN YOU CROSS RAINBOW BRIDGE TOGETHER... 

After reading this poem when my beloved dog Candy died, it made me cry more but then it also made me feel happy to think she will be waiting for me along with Lychee, Brandy, Casper, Bailey, and Duchess. These were the dogs I have loved and died because of illness, some were puppies still and one by a hit and run with a tricycle. Sometimes knowing that they are happy and in a beautiful place makes it easier to bear the pain.

Some people would laugh at you saying they are just pets, animals. To me sometimes they are better than people because they give you unconditional love. Something some people don't now what it is. My dogs would be with me through hard times and happy times. They know that just by sitting beside you and let you stoke them can ease your pain and makes you feel better. The pain you feel when you loose a loved one (human) is the same you feel towards a loyal and loved pet, be it a cat, dog or bird or whatever animal.

Lychee was with me almost 5 yrs died because someone poisoned her

Candy died of liver failure never knew chocolates were bad for them she was with me also more than 4 yrs

Casper died at 3 mos of some unknown digestive problems

Bailey died at 5 mos hit and run :(

Brandy was almost 3 yrs  when she was a victim of hit and run her puppies also died when they were over 1 yr due to heat stoke

Duchess was a playful little pup she died at 4 mos also unknown reasons

Movie Review - Olympus Has Fallen

I thought this was a movie that was shown last year but actually just this March 2013. I love to watch action-filled movies. It keeps  you alert and interested. Now how can I make a review that wont be a spoiler for those who has not watched it yet?

I also noticed that there is another movie just showing with the title "White House Down"?Hmm it seems as the plot is almost the same. The White House in the US, the house of the President gets overthrown by terrorists or other military groups.

In Olympus has Fallen, they are Korean terrorists. In the White House down they are paramilitary invaders. They both have the secret service people involved, one a former head and in the other one who was trying to become one.

I have not watched the "White House Down" yet. I am planning to next week. Then I will make a review and compare them both.

It also seems that the main characters are both hunkes lol. In Olympus has fallen it is Gerard Butler an older but ruggedly handsome guy. I love the way he acts and his good looks isn't just a pretty face but the aura he exudes... Hmmm wouldn't mind dating him lol. In White House Down it is Channing Tatum. Now he is also a good looking hunk. That is another reason why I am going to watch it.

Both also have families involved in the first one it is the President's son and in the other the daughter of Channing.

I watched the Olympus on DVD on my wide screen Tv so even my helpers watched. There was one statement a reporter said in the movie that really got me. He said " the White House, the most heavily secured place in the world, has been taken". Imagine if that ever happens, what will become of the rest of the world?

I wonder if the scenes will be the same? Maybe there will be similarities.

I love war movies. They are more realistic than aliens and zombies (I also watched World War Z, not knowing it was a zombies movie. I gave that a 3 1/2 - 4 stars.)

I would recommend this movie  Olympus Has Fallen (I give it a 4 star rating :) So I think this was a great movie and very action-filled since the start.